Hibernation

I'm listening to Faith Hill a lot these days. Maybe it's her voice, maybe it's her name.. but I really feel I need all the faith to move on..

I'm growing faith again...but it feels like winter now so I'd hibernate a while and when spring comes, i'd bloom again.. in the arms of love..

Another beautiful song "You're Still Here" ... can't embed but got the link..
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cnQIXFYHibc&ob=av2e

IT MATTERS TO ME by Faith Hill

CRY

Is there life after a disc injury?

It's terrible not to be able to run and bend and exercise with abandon. Oh gosh,I never missed running so much! Please don't ever take your body for granted. Cooking dinner while pain was racking my back, I struggled to either give in to despair or be hopeful..Then I thought of God. Hey, He's on my side, the God of all the earth! Why should I worry or fear? I should thank Him for this injury cos it reminds me that He's in control and it causes me to be humble as I seek Him for strength and relief from the pain. Really felt Him so close to me that I told myself to smile and be happy for being able to walk and move about still, even though there's some pain, it's still not as bad as being totally disabled, right? So dear folks, please smile when you can walk and run without pain!

Creative Embroidery

On my way back from SSMC, got waylaid by Avone beauty consultants at Junction 8 who talked me into re-doing my eyebrows. Admittedly, my previous embroidery done at #1 salon by Amy is already quite faded and I was about to do my touch-up with her. Well I thot, why not take the plunge to do the Creative Eyebrows, though much more expensive, may look better? After all, how many more years do I have to look attractive? My time is running out, like an hour glass, unlike women in their twenties n thirties, who still have their youthful looks... So i took the plunge..

The colour is really dark (will fade to 50% according to the beautician) but i think I can accept the shape. One tip seems higher than the other though..I'd check in with them later when i pass by their salon..

Discogenic Low Back Pain

Had so many compliments on my Teacher's Day dinner photos that the $70 (plus $15 radiance ampoule thrown in-which I did not know was so expensive, else I'd have refused it) done at Creative Faceworks at Far East Plaza by Yvonne was quite worth it. She's a nice lady I could chat with and during the makeover, she got inspired to do sports after I told her how I managed to achieve such a toned body. I hope she will, cos I totally believe in exercise even though it got me into this condition : Discogenic Low Back Pain. I started feeling some butt/lower back ache a week after I stopped my inline skating in June. I thought it was just the usual muscle strain that one gets when working out too much. So I did stretches, massages, etc which did kinda helped. But I noticed whenever I got up in the morning, I'd feel stiffer but it gets better when I stretched abit, so I didn't think much about it. But lately I suddenly felt the pain come back rather sharply, especially when I sneezed. Then yesterday I sneezed so hard that I felt a very sharp pain in my pelvis/hip area and then I was LOCKED. Couldn't bend, couldn't walk properly...stiff like a wooden board.. Called up Singapore Sports Medicine Centre and got an appt to see Dr Ben Tan, the former sailor. He said I probably tore my spinal disc when I did the inline skating, and the sneeze yesterday morning tore it farther!

So here I am, off sports for a week. But I aint giving up on sports! I'd find other ways to exercise my body and keep it fighting fit still. Well if paraplegics can still enter the paralympics, what's a torn spinal disc? I'd swim more, do more core exercises and take up recumbent cycling. I'd also do more power walking as well as more strength training!

Only a bit su-sah about the skates I just bought.. sigh..but maybe I can still skate when i've recovered well? Just got to do it slowly, bit at a time...

Teacher's Day 2010

Why We Still Need Men?

from : http://www.articlesbase.com/relationships-articles/men-who-make-you-feel-unloved-2518433.html

We don't need a man to give us orgasms, we can do that by ourselves. We don't need men to pay for us, buy us stuff, or drive us around. We can do everything for ourselves that we possibly need but there is one thing that we can't do. Give ourselves the feeling that comes for someone loving us unconditionally and wildly.
Yes we can unconditionally love ourselves but there is nothing like feeling as if we are in a secure, loving, and compassionate relationship.
Our man is supposed to lift us up and make us feel better about ourselves. He's supposed to show us how special, important, and amazing we are to him. He is supposed to cherish us and let us know that he does so by his actions and his words. Especially his actions.
But when he makes you feel like you're not special to him or cherished by him it can actually really hurt and be really stressful on you.
Relationships should be a support system that is made from a pure web of love. That is it. There should be no constant feelings of anger, fighting, crying, sadness, or any other negative emotion.That's not a relationship, that's a hassle.
If you are in a relationship like that you should re-evaluate how important it is for you to stay in that relationship and if it is important then you have to find a way to make it better for your sanity and the happiness of your life. Why spend your life any other way than happy?
No one deserves to be unhappy and desperate for something that they just cannot seem to get from their closest ally no matter how hard they try. With the amount of negativity we face in our outside world we deserve to come home to someone who makes us forget all those negative things and instead lifts us up and make us feel good.
If you have tried and tried to make it better with no results it may be time to get out of the relationship. If it's not going to get better than you are literally staying in a relationship that does not make you happy instead of letting go and finding someone who will make you feel really and truly loved.
It's your choice but I know where I would rather be.


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WHAT ARE YOU WORTH?

I asked myself today, what AM i worth? Am i worth flowers on my birthday, on an anniversary and at least 3 whole days spent with me? Only once? Or each and every year? Only in the beginning or even when I've been with him for five years, ten year, twenty years?

Well it's serious food for thought. I wanna spend the whole holiday next week thinking over this, cos I wonder if it's because I don't value myself, that's why others don't value me? Or am I with the wrong kind of guys?? I know there's no fairy tale r/s in this world but is it TOO much to ask for flowers n a simple gift on my birthday and anniversaries? Esp when one has given her heart and body and soul? Is it too much to ask for flowers and a gift that shows I'm valued and cherished?

I think if I value myself, I'd be able to find the right kind of person who'd be willing to pay the 'price'. After all, I do take care of the people I love very well. Why is it I don't get it in return??

What AM I WORTH? Can someone tell me pls?