Transition

Just had my coffee, enjoying my two bonus free periods on Thursday (7.30-8.30) Normally its taken up by meetings but due to the end of the Term, we are freed up to do our own stuff. I read somewhere that just the aroma of coffee can stimulate us (http://www.sciencedaily.com/releases/2008/06/080616092116.htm)No wonder I'm addicted to coffee but I try to limit myself to ONE cup a day. I like Goldroast Low Sugar, but may soon take it without sugar. Loooong day ahead today, got Meet-the-Parents throughout the afternoon till about 6 pm. Met one yesterday already and the thoughtful parent gave me two jars of Manuka honey!! That was really awesome. Took a tablespoon this morning with a smile. After the parents' meeting, I'm heading to the pool at Toa Payoh for a good relaxing and rejuvenating swim. Last time I swam on Tuesday, someone approached me and asked me if I swim regularly at Bishan. I was surprised that the person recognised me even though I was in my goggles n swim cap and wearing a new swim suit. Anyway after a comment on my stamina, I felt recharged and told myself that this is one thing I do well and I must keep it up!

Furthermore, being the Health Ed co-ordinator now, I must definitely be a model of health. Was really flattered when my female colleague yesterday asked me the secret to my looking so fit and good for my age. So I shared with her my exercise regime and my supplements. I honestly feel I'm starting to look my age though. The eye bags are showing up in photos quite clearly. I'm going for a talk on 'scarless eye-bag removal' surgery next Sat. If that is not an option, then I guess I have to 'age gracefully'. But then I'm also gaining more confidence and maturity as I age, so that is also good. I find that I can manage stress and set-backs better than when I was younger. I'm hoping to improve on my communication skills. Practice makes perfect.

But I must confess..what really makes my day is not the coffee. It's the morning chat I have with someone I love deeply.. hearing his voice really soothes my soul and recharges me. It's so nice to just share ideas and opinions, laughter and disappointments as well. Building on a foundation of rock. The way I feel about him is definitely gonna last a lifetime...like the rocks in the sea, resistant to corrosion and erosion. Thinking of him now and smiling. Is it possible to love someone even more deeply as time goes by? Yes, I believe it is...

Swimming On

Been swimming for two days in a row. So nice. I must say swimming is certainly one of the best sports around. Even for a veteran swimmer like me, there's always new things to learn, and today I corrected two aspects of my strokes - not to dip my head too much into the water when doing the breaststroke and not to pull my arm too straight in the water when doing my front crawl. Will take some time to undo the bad habits but I am determined. Things always take time to adjust but determination is the key. I'm looking forward to tomorrow's pilates and yoga session at home after work.

Keeping Fit

IF I live to 50, I'd have another 4 years of lovely memories to make, rite? I must hope, I must have faith, I must believe. Cos the loss of hope is the start of depression. Today I went to ClubFitt gym at Toa Payoh cos the Bishan gym was closed. I needed the motivation of watching other people work out, cos frankly I've lost the motivation to keep fit. But I reminded myself - I can't give in to negative thoughts! There are ppl out there who are keeping fit and hoping to have a better healthier body! I must work out with them. So i took a bus all the way to Toa Payoh.. Even before I reached the gym, I met two guys who asked me where the ClubFitt gym is. They look like buddies going to work out. I told them I'm also going there for the first time but I roughly know where it is. Looking at them, my heart ached for someone to join me too. So i prayed a wish... Recently my wishes seem to be coming true! The gym was narrow and small, like a hotel gym. I found the free weights corner n started working out. Good thing the gym not crowded and did not have loud-talking ppl who dominate the benches. Mostly friendly looking men n women who quickly gave way to me. So nice. I did a good one hour workout. But seeing all those muscled men made me miss someone a lot. I looked at myself in the mirror. Not bad, i have quite a toned body and my skin actually glows! Thanks to the skin brushing and jojoba oil.

Castles on the Sand

Castles on the sand..they are vain dreams and hopes built on relationships or activities that won't last. When the waves come, they get swept away and wat's left is regret, pain and disappointment..

I want to build my house on a rock. It's ok that its not a castle. What I need is just a cosy home - no fancy trimmings. A house is only a home when it's filled with love, laughter and warmth. I want to rebuild my r/s with my family, myself and with God of all the Earth. I want to believe in myself - even when ppl I care about do not believe in me. Today I shall start building. I will pray, listen, smile, encourage, apologize if I've hurt, ask for help, be thankful... cook, wash, tidy up, give tuition - all in the name of love.

A relationship built on love may die, but the love will never die.. I will never forget a Japanese show i watched on TV years ago, about how a woman involved in a plane crash refused to go to hospital cos she found out her husband had died in the plane crash and she wanted to die too...but the air stewardess told her - "if u die now, who will remember yr husband, the things u did together, the things he did for u, the things u did for him and the love u had? When my r/s failed, I also wanted to kill myself but I told myself if i did, the love I feel will die too..So i went on living to keep the love alive in my heart. Yr husband will live on in yr heart, he'd never die as long as u're alive!"

I cried and cried for days after hearing that. I wasn't even in love then. I never forgot the look on the stewardess face to this day - the pain in her eyes but yet she smiled. I know how she feels now cos I'm going thru it myself. I wanted to die a few weeks ago when a relationship failed.. but I told myself I truly loved this person, deeply and totally. Though he doesn't believe me or care anymore, I must live so that the love we had will always be alive in my heart. Four and a half years of happy memories, that's 1642 days of love.. I must keep all these special memories alive in my mind and heart.. till the day i leave this earth..


From now on, I want to post on love. That's what I'm going to live for. Not pain, not hatred, not bitterness, not anger, not hurt. But love. Love is the greatest of all.

Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.

Love never fails.

TRUE LOVE

True love isn't about possession. It is the opposite - letting go if they are happier without you. True love isn't about laughter - it is about tears - crying together with your loved ones when they hurt. True love isn't about fun. It is about pain - missing your loved ones, worrying about them... True love isn't about gifts - it's about sacrifices - of time, of money, of blood, sweat and tears..

When I hurt because I loved, I tell myself that it is far better than having not loved at all..

But the greatest of ALL is LOVE.

Now I know why Jesus died for love, cos when I love someone deeply, I will also die for them..