Love is within me

God really cares for me! When I handed him my broken heart, I was flooded with texts from my friends and even people I have not contacted for over 7 years! My whatsapp was suddenly so busy and alive with chats that I could hardly keep up... I know this is God taking care of my heart. Truly if He did not spare his own son but delivered Him up for us all, how shall He not together with Jesus, freely give us all things? I rested in Him and allowed His love to do the healing. He knows how I feel and He will provide for my needs. I had a great Friday and Saturday nite out with friends and admirers, a restful Sunday and this week looks packed with dates and appointments too. I can't believe it. Truly God is at work while I rested.
I was even woken up this morning with texts from my friends! How nice.. not people who see me as a booty call but people who like being with me and have fun with me. I felt so loved. Made pancakes and  now having my coffee and listening to music. Looking forward to my evening out tonite after cooking dinner and my golf session with my buddies tomorrow!
Move on, baby!

Letting go..

I was really hurt recently by someone I loved and gave so much to. As I retreated and tried to deal with the pain, I realised I can't blame this person for treating me the way he did. I no longer mean anything much to him hence my needs aren't important to him anymore. If someone really cares for another, they will go out of their way to spend time with them. But when the love is no longer there, there's no more desire to be with the other person, less care how they feel. The best thing for me is to let go, wish him all the best and move on to find hearts that can accept me. No point crying over spilt milk. I have loved and lost. I'm sure there are plenty out there who understand what I'm going through. I don't want to be a convenience store in this person's life- just for him to come by and meet his needs quickly n leave. I'm worth far more than that, I know. I won't allow myself to be treated like that anymore.

Breakfast Solo at coffee & toast

A beautiful Sunday ahead. Feeling so loved and favoured and happy. I have all things in Christ !

One hell of a circuit workout

http://exercise.about.com/library/blcardiostrengthcircuit.htm

Did this on a Thursday and today my glutes still ache! What an awesome workout! 3 cheers!

Love with the heart, lust with the eyes

I've finally come to the place where I learnt that what the eyes want is mostly lust and what the heart wants is love. I'm in love with a man who may not have a six pack but in my heart he has that and more, cos I love his attitude, his personality and his style. I won't love him more if he looks like a ripped hunk with popping veins. It doesn't matter. In fact if he has that body and his personality sucks, I'm going to dump him! I love him the way he is and he still turns me on like crazy! Well I hope he will still love me when I don't look like the slim sexy woman he first met..

Perfection is not going to bring you happiness

WARNING: THAT PERFECT BODY ISN’T GOING TO BRING YOU JACK SHIT
Posted by Andrea Owen on March 13, 2012 · 45 Comments
I’ve been exercising most of my life. I’ve belonged to a gym consistently since I was 19 years old. Small gyms, all women’s gyms, big chain gyms and body building gyms. In 2005 I worked corporately for the American Council on Exercise and during that time got certified as a personal trainer. I also worked for a short while training clients. All this resume stuff to tell you I’ve seen my fair share of women going after their golden ticket: the perfect body.
And I may be speaking to a brick wall here- but I’ll say it anyway. This “perfect body” that we speak of; the one we see airbrushed in magazines, catalogs, billboards, commercials (yes, even commercials are fake) and even on Facebook and Pinterest doesn’t bring you anything. And I’ve heard the argument 1,000 times: “But, it brings me confidence. I feel better about myself when my thighs are slim/ass is firm/stomach is flat/arms are tone/whatever”.
And my question to that is…..Why?
Why would a flat stomach bring you confidence? Why would slim hips make you feel good about yourself? And if you think it really does, I call bullshit.
You may be calling me a total bitch right now. That’s fine (it’s not the first time). You might be saying, “This lady has no freaking idea what she’s talking about”. That’s okay too. And if you’re thinking that- you’re exactly the person I’m speaking to.
I speak from experience and I speak for the hundreds of girls and women I’ve seen over the years. In gyms, in locker rooms, in classrooms, at parties, anywhere. Because I used to be that girl who thought my ticket to happiness, my ticket to love, my ticket to everything valuable was this perfect body. Cunning, baffling and powerful.
Here’s what I know for sure. I know this for sure not only because it’s been my experience, but I’ve seen it over and over with other women who have come to this realization:
What you have going on on the outside, says jack shit about what you have going on on the inside. You can covet all day long someone else’s body and pick yours apart, or even hate your own, but having that outside package that you so badly want will give you nothing but a false sense of happiness. An empty prize. It may very well make you happy for a very short time. You may have made a goal that you put on yourself to lose weight or get to a certain size and you got there. But, if you’re relying on that weight or size to bring you the happiness and fulfillment that you’re missing, you’re in for a major disappointment, my friend.
Try working on your inside first. Try facing your demons, because lord knows you have them. We all do. Try coping in ways that feed your soul instead of coping by hustling and scrambling to look perfect for everyone else. Because the people that really care what your body looks like, should not be worth a shit to you.
Don’t know where to start? Ask yourself this:
What are you afraid might happen if you didn’t have that perfect body?
Afraid someone might not love you? Afraid you aren’t worthy? What is it?
Truth: You are worthy of love no matter what your body looks like.
What are you not facing while you’re so busy on your quest for that perfect body?
What’s going on in your life that needs your immediate attention that you’re ignoring? Your marriage or relationships? Your job that sucks? Your lack of self-love? What?
Truth: Those last imaginary 5 pounds isn’t the answer. Another workout isn’t the answer. YOUR attention to your life is the answer.
How do you cope with life’s hard times? (And don’t act like you don’t have any!) How do you feel your feelings?
Truth: If you numb your feelings or go unconscious when you don’t want to feel something not only will it not go away, it will get worse. Try facing it. Break down in a crying heap if you need to. Be vulnerable. Be messy. Be imperfect. Be a train wreck.
And here’s one last truth: If and when you get to a place where you’ve worked for and achieved this “perfect body”, there will always be something else. Something else that isn’t right about your outside appearance. And you’ll try to fix that too. And while you’re trying to fix that, there is something else inside you that is dying for your attention. Please don’t spend another day lying to yourself thinking that this “perfect body” is the answer to your problems. Please don’t spend another night in bed thinking, “What is WRONG with me?” Please don’t spend another day criticizing yourself and wishing your body were different. It’s an assault on your soul.
Every bit of you is perfect, unique and amazing. So many people love and adore you to pieces. Start believing them.
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Finally! Someone wrote what I’ve been saying for a long time. All these poor people working so hard for the perfect body will eventually realize it’s not the end of the rainbow. If you should lose weight for health reasons, that’s one thing. But if you’re losing weight to “start living life”, you’re wasting your life away. You’re also living your life on someone else’s terms.
We all seem to want so much perfection; perfect body, perfect income (when is enough enough?), perfect house, car, gadgets, etc., and we end up spending our whole lives never realizing that those are things that JUST DON’T MATTER! Our families, friends, hobbies, things that make us smile and feel good, and things that we do to help others feel good; those things matter.

I wish I could wave a magic wand and everyone would realize this.

What is really beautuful

There's no end to beautiful looking women out there who will attract the eyes of men.. There is no telling when the man you love deeply will stray and fall out of love for you. You begin to look old and your figure gets out of shape. At the same time he starts saying 'I love you' less and looks distracted when you are together. You try hard to look younger and slimmer and even some men start noticing you but the man you love doesn't notice...
It struck me as I was meditating on what is really beautiful that.. Looks, figure and sex appeal will fade inevitably. But what continues to attract is patience, kindness, grace and understanding. That's how some relationships stand the test of time.

The bible says that love is all this..
Love suffers long and is kind; love does not envy; love does not parade itself, is not puffed up; 5 does not behave rudely, does not seek its own, is not provoked, thinks no evil; 6 does not rejoice in iniquity, but rejoices in the truth; 7 bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things.

To be really beautiful, it's to love. not to have a pretty face or sexy body or dress well.