Emotional Hunger

Here I am, hunger gnawing at my insides while i try to tire myself out so I can fall asleep.. somehow through a miscommunication, I ended up without dinner.. But there's a greater hunger that's eating me inside.. the hunger for release from all this drudgery..i'm getting tired of living this endless cycle of work, chores, sports without anyone to share it with. By anyone I mean - a soulmate....I've decided that I'd stop this diet of 'crumbs and snacks'... yeah i'd crave for them but I must go cold turkey till the addiction is gone..till I don't think of it anymore.. and my heart is free to embrace a wholesome diet. It will be hard but I'd rather shiver in loneliness than drag myself through such pain and heartache.. I've become like a hollow tree.. the hunger for love eating away my insides..Just less than 3 months more, and hopefully by then I'd be ready to bloom again.

Crumbs and Whole Meals

Somehow we make excuses for people we love and when they give us so little of their time, we just accept it out of love...but ultimately the relationship gets strained cos our needs are not met and we feel taken advantage or even taken for granted..esp when the friend or loved one is only nice to you to get something they want... Well if i really love someone, I want to spend time with the person - even if its doing nothing. Just talk and be in the company of that person..that is why it is called love. You love the person. But if a person claims to love me and yet only sees me when help or something is needed, then how is that love? How can one hour out of a whole week be enough to qualify as QUALITY time and loving time?? Even two hours is rather short ...

Well I want whole meals, not crumbs. I want long walks, long talks, dinner+movie+supper, a day at the beach, a whole nite out...