Emotional Hunger

Here I am, hunger gnawing at my insides while i try to tire myself out so I can fall asleep.. somehow through a miscommunication, I ended up without dinner.. But there's a greater hunger that's eating me inside.. the hunger for release from all this drudgery..i'm getting tired of living this endless cycle of work, chores, sports without anyone to share it with. By anyone I mean - a soulmate....I've decided that I'd stop this diet of 'crumbs and snacks'... yeah i'd crave for them but I must go cold turkey till the addiction is gone..till I don't think of it anymore.. and my heart is free to embrace a wholesome diet. It will be hard but I'd rather shiver in loneliness than drag myself through such pain and heartache.. I've become like a hollow tree.. the hunger for love eating away my insides..Just less than 3 months more, and hopefully by then I'd be ready to bloom again.