Castles on the Sand

Castles on the sand..they are vain dreams and hopes built on relationships or activities that won't last. When the waves come, they get swept away and wat's left is regret, pain and disappointment..

I want to build my house on a rock. It's ok that its not a castle. What I need is just a cosy home - no fancy trimmings. A house is only a home when it's filled with love, laughter and warmth. I want to rebuild my r/s with my family, myself and with God of all the Earth. I want to believe in myself - even when ppl I care about do not believe in me. Today I shall start building. I will pray, listen, smile, encourage, apologize if I've hurt, ask for help, be thankful... cook, wash, tidy up, give tuition - all in the name of love.

A relationship built on love may die, but the love will never die.. I will never forget a Japanese show i watched on TV years ago, about how a woman involved in a plane crash refused to go to hospital cos she found out her husband had died in the plane crash and she wanted to die too...but the air stewardess told her - "if u die now, who will remember yr husband, the things u did together, the things he did for u, the things u did for him and the love u had? When my r/s failed, I also wanted to kill myself but I told myself if i did, the love I feel will die too..So i went on living to keep the love alive in my heart. Yr husband will live on in yr heart, he'd never die as long as u're alive!"

I cried and cried for days after hearing that. I wasn't even in love then. I never forgot the look on the stewardess face to this day - the pain in her eyes but yet she smiled. I know how she feels now cos I'm going thru it myself. I wanted to die a few weeks ago when a relationship failed.. but I told myself I truly loved this person, deeply and totally. Though he doesn't believe me or care anymore, I must live so that the love we had will always be alive in my heart. Four and a half years of happy memories, that's 1642 days of love.. I must keep all these special memories alive in my mind and heart.. till the day i leave this earth..


From now on, I want to post on love. That's what I'm going to live for. Not pain, not hatred, not bitterness, not anger, not hurt. But love. Love is the greatest of all.

Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.

Love never fails.

TRUE LOVE

True love isn't about possession. It is the opposite - letting go if they are happier without you. True love isn't about laughter - it is about tears - crying together with your loved ones when they hurt. True love isn't about fun. It is about pain - missing your loved ones, worrying about them... True love isn't about gifts - it's about sacrifices - of time, of money, of blood, sweat and tears..

When I hurt because I loved, I tell myself that it is far better than having not loved at all..

But the greatest of ALL is LOVE.

Now I know why Jesus died for love, cos when I love someone deeply, I will also die for them..

FIRST EXPERIENCE as RACE OFFICIAL

It's always the first time we experience things that we remember best. This is certainly gonna be one of them- my first experience as a race official at the National Inter-school Sailing Championships. Not because it was fun, but because it was so dreadful. First, the boat was really too small for 6 people! Then the smoke from the engine exhaust was terrible. It also did not help that two of the race officials were smokers. Being the only woman on board made me feel even more helpless and alienated. THEN the awful happens - I threw up! Not once but three times. Thereafter, I sat on the only chair available and went to sleep while the men snaked around me doing their duties. I couldn't care less. I only wished I could be home sleeping, but then I guess which of the men there didn't? So after a short nap, I tried to be useful. The wind kept changing direction so they had to set a new race course again. Each time they set the course, they had to inform the other markers by walkie talkie to change their marker positions too. Altogether there were 4 marks which the competitors had to round on their left. We had to give the starting signals (very complicated - something like 5 consecutive signals for start) and we had to note the numbers of the sails as they came thru the finish line too. The competitors sailed 4 races today and I'm sure glad for the rain else they'd have gone on to do the fifth race. I din get to eat my lunch at all till about 3.30 pm when I felt much too hungry and ate some of the veg in the pre-packed lunchbox.

Sigh, another 3 more days to go. I went to the pharmacy get something for the seasickness and was recommended these wristbands which are supposed to act on the acupuncture points. Well we'd see how it goes tmr..

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Step Aside, Teriyaki Marinade - Here comes ..DARK BALSAMIC, SOY AND HONEY GLAZED GRILLED NORTHWEST SALMON

Was cleaning up my fridge the other day and noticed I had this balsamic vinegar dressing which was expiring soon.. Today I saw this recipe for a new salmon marinade and decided I'd try it since I have all the ingredients at hand! Just marinated the salmon with it at 7.30 and can't wait to grill it an hour later at 8.30 pm! *rubs hands*

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